x Spirits - Do You Believe x

Spirits - They say there all around us, some say spirits only come back if they have unfinished business, maybe true, who knows.

Ive had ma fair share of spooky moments, the first when a was about 9, Ma gran had just passed away from cancer on 15TH December 1994, And it was the 31st December and ma parents were goin out to bring in the New Year, So me and ma baby sister Siobhan had to stay with our auntie, which also happend to be our gran's house. We went to bed unaware that it was actually gran's room we were sleeping in, I couldn't sleep the whole night. Gran had this dressing table what sat opposite her bedroom door, and if you looked in it you could see the top of the stairs. I don't know why but a turned around and looked in the dresssing table mirror.... And there she was clear as day, Standing waving to me, She was all White, in a white gown, her hair curly like it had always been, She was Happy. Only a didn't think about the good things at the time, A was just spooked out completely. I quickly looked away, Frozen with fear.

The next morning a couldn't stop thinking about it, Never spoke a word to anyone. Our uncle took us for a walk down to the meadows, Still a never utterd a word, All a could think about was what id saw. Even when a saw ma mum & dad a never spoke to them, a was mute for a whole few weeks, Traumatised a guess. But why? She was our gran, She never harmed us when she was here and she wouldn't in Heaven.

It wasn't until a was sitting reading our local paper, and a came across a wee verse written for gran from the family, That a broke down. I remember ma sister Michelle was there and a just cried and told her everything.

Since that night a have believed that spirits are real. My family recently lost a very special man, Ali B. And strange things have been happening, To his family. Which is understandable because that's were he lived, with his family. But why me??

You see, The day Ali B got buried, our niece Millie stayed the night with us, I was laying in bed around 3.30am, Just starting to fall asleep, When a felt someone sit on ma bed, And at that moment a got a cold shiver right from ma feet to ma head, you can safely say again a was frozen with fear. I looked over to see if daisy was Sleepin as maybe it was her what had jumped on ma bed, But she was sound asleep. Ok so it could have been any spirit, But Bear in mind Millie, Ali B's only niece by blood was staying that night. My gut instincts were telling me that he was there looking after Millie, and he just wanted to come and say hello. The following night a was going to bed and a had a packet of crisps and a bottle juice, and I KNOW a put them down on the floor to take off ma dressing gown, Then a went for a widdle, When a got back the crisps were gone... The juice was there but the crisps were nowhere to be found?? I raked ma room high and ow for them, I thought maybe mum had took them but she never, I still can't find them anywhere. Now Ali B had alot of health problems and he wasnt allowed sweets n stuff, but he sneaked them anyway hehe, A guess he fancied some nik naks (",). Lastnight a was filling out daisy's water bowl before a went to bed, and a turned round to the fridge and a felt a splash of water hit the back of ma leg, Daisy wasn't there so couldn't have been her. Then just 10mins before a started writing this a went downstairs for a drink before a settle down to sleep, And a walked past our bin in the kitchen and it slammed shut, a never even touched it??.

Im seeing a pattern here, that strange thngs are happening before a go to bed... But why me?? Is the spirit Ali B? Is it our gran? or is it just some spook what wants to scare the shit outta me, hey maybe it's casper (",) Spirits... Do YOU believe??.

x A Legend In His Own Right x

Ali B.... At one time the name never meant anything to me, I use to see this wee guy around the shops all the time, Never knew who he was, He use to be looking at the magazines or whatever, He use to always say hello, not just to me but to everyone, He was just a polite wee chap, Then a found out my sister had met a new man, a guy a knew from school, Gordon Scott 'Goose' as a knew him, never really knew much about him, We got to meet his family 'The Scott Family' and this wee guy a use to see around all the time, turned out to be Goose's Brother, who went by the name Ali B. I was kinda surprised at this but it was all good. Ali B had allot health problems like myself so a warmed to him, He was a sweet wee guy, always wanted to make you cups of tea, He loved his munchies even tho he wasn't allowed them due to his health, But being the cheeky mischievous guy he was, He done it anyway hehe (",).

My sister Amanda and Gordon Got married on 26TH September 2009, was a beautiful day, Everyone looked smashing. I remember ma feet were killing me in the heels a was wearing and Ali B wanted to look after me (",) what always makes me smile when a think about it, That's just the kind guy he was.

On June the 10Th 2010 at around 3.30pm it was just a normal day for me, I was sitting on twitter like usual, waiting on dean texting me saying he was home from his course. Then ma mum came in ma room and told me she had to go and get ma nieces Amy and Millie as Ali B had stopped breathing and Amanda and Goose had to go urgently. It was hell shock to the system, a knew, a don't know how a knew but a did, the moment mum said they words "Ali B has stopped breathing" I knew because of his health that he wasn't gonna make it. Mum came back with the bairns, She wasn't even in the door 10 Minutes and Amanda called to say Ali B had died... Mum just burst into tears, a was sitting with Amy and Millie and we knew right away by mum's reaction what had happened. Amy started to cry so mum and her cuddled, I was in utter shock, Millie is only 2, She didn't understand, I didn't want her to see mum and Amy upset so a took her up to ma room to give Daisy some Biscuits, She loves wee Daisy. Amy came up to ma room, she clung to her baby sister Millie, Ma poor babe was inconsolable and there was nothing a could do :-( Everything had happened so fast, It didn't seem real, a couldn't cry, I was just in utter shock. I spoke to dean and hearing his voice still never made me break down... It wasn't till Mum had took the kids to ma sister Michelle's and a was on ma own that it sunk in, I just couldn't believe it was happening. I run a nice hot bubble bath, climbed in and just sat there and cried. I couldn't understand WHY someone so loving and caring could be taken away, He was only 31 years old.

It's been 2 weeks now since Ali B passed away, When he was born he was giving 2 weeks to live, He beat the odds and lasted 32 years. Every day has been hell, I find myself waking up wishing, Hoping it was all just a bad dream. Have cried a million tears. Doesn't seem to get any easier. Ali B makes his final journey tomorrow 22ND June 2010, He will be wearing his suit he wore to the wedding, He's going to heaven a handsome chappy, Will have all the Hot angels after him hehe. Ive Never experienced a funeral before, The thought made me ill so a chose to look after Millie and Harvey so ma sister's could go say goodbye, I know Ali B would understand Why a can't go, We will go and take some pretty flowers down afterwards, I just can't stand and watch them put him in the ground.

Ali B you were the sweetest wee guy a have ever met, Am so proud to say you were family, I will never forget how you wanted to look after me at the wedding, That memory a will cherish forever. We will look after your mum & dad, Gordon, Amanda and the girls, We know how much you adored them, The last 2 weeks have just dragged on, We just want you to be at rest, I hope your gonna be good up there wee guy, No causing havoc amongst the angels hehe. You gave us a glimpse of heaven, you were an angel right here on earth, I will never ever forget you wee guy Rest In Peace beautiful angel, we will meet again some day, love always and forever x Claire and Dean xoxoxoxo <3<3<3

Alan Black Scott 1978 - 2010